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1:24 pm
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Sunday, December 14th, 2003
12:28 am
[misskingsley]
Dead. Man. Walking.
We have arrived in Tortuga, finally. I thought we would never get here. Everyone seems to be relieved that we have made it to the town relatively unscathed, well that's not really true. We have a lot of damages that need to be repaired as soon as possible, but no one seems to be paying that any attention. Within the next few days hopefully everything will be repaired as far as the ship is concerned. Now that has nothing to do with what I'm writing about, I have been couped up in my room for what seems like eternity. Will was kind enough to make me something to eat and after much begging and pleading on my part he said that he promised he would take me into town!! ::Grins widely:: I was just so excited! I could finally get out of the room for a little while and have Will accompany me, he really is a gentleman. No wonder Cass and Liz wanted to keep him for themselves. So anyway Will and I were walking, minding our own business when you'll never believe who happened to grace us with his highly undesirable presence. Captain Gavin Evans, ugh! I can't stand him, he's so arrogant and rude. The entire time he spoke to us he said nothing but boorish remarks. I cannot even say how many times he spoke down to Will, he spoke down to me but it's nothing new for me so I tried to just not pay attention. A young man, named Rue, came and...well...he spoke up for me, it was a kind gesture but he really didn't have to. But he nearly broke Gavin's knee, he deserved it, that pig. Of course Gavin came back with some smart remarks for all of us, he called me a whore. I should have seen that one coming. Will threatened him, but Gavin was never one to get scared very easily. Gwen came rushing back to where we were I think she was trying to come back to warn me but alas, it was too little, too late. The thing that shocked me the most was Will had knocked him to the ground, telling him to watch his mouth and then when he didn't he severed his head clean off. I was totally stunned, now I'm not angry with Will for killing him it's just a little strange to be talking to someone and then they are dead the next second. I'm kind of happy he's gone though, because now I don't have to worry about him ever again ::phew:: that is a relief. I don't blame Will for killing him, if you had heard the things he said, I'm sure you would have killed him too, Gavin never understood that just because someone has less money than you and doesn't live in a huge manor doesn't mean that they aren't good people. Hell most of the people I know that live in nice houses and have lots of money are stuck up and rude, case and point, Gavin...and some other people I know that shall remain nameless. Aye, what am I going to tell uncle Richard whenever it is I get back home? He's going to kill me, he was upset with me before we left and now a naval Captain, dead. I'll have to just explain to him what happened and pray to God that he understands. Will was distraught after the whole thing which is totally understandable so he left me with Gwen and so now I think Gwen and I are going to go on the search for Brandon, her older brother, who Gavin said was here. Why did Gavin have to show up and shoot his mouth off anyway?? Life would have been so much easier had he just stayed in Port Royal. ::sigh::

Current Mood: indescribable
Sunday, November 30th, 2003
1:37 pm
[misskingsley]
I Just Need A Single Bright Day
I don't even know where to start or what to say. Today was the day that I finally worked up enough courage to tell Will...about everything. It almost amazed me that I told him all of that because not even my uncle knows about what actually happened. I was a little apprehensive about talking to him about it, and when I first started to speak i just wanted to crawl under a rock and die. But as I let it all out I felt more at ease and now it's as if a weight has been lifted from me. I am still unsure if I did the right thing though, I don't even know what to think about it anymore. I'm just tired of hiding what happened and it makes me feel so unhappy all of the time. I'm praying that my mother was right when she told me to tell him and that he would understand, but he seemed to. I couldn't tell you what I'm so afraid of, I guess I'm just afraid that people will think I'm a whore. I'm just rambling now, I'm going to go and occupy myself instead of moping around.

Korn - Dirty

Keep knocking.
No one's there.
Pouring down.
Near be felt.
I'm out here, by myself.
All alone.
Ripping my head off.
I hurt so bad inside.
I wish you could see the world through my eyes.
It stays the same.
I just wanna laugh again.

Keep hoping.
Nothing to spare.
So my life.
Isn't quite there.
Feel like a whore.
A dirty whore.
Such a whore.
Dirty...

Current Mood: discontent
1:59 am
[cassandralayne]
Which Way Now?
Ever just want to freeze a frame of your life so you can look at it and analyze it? From all aspects to make sure you've got everything covered? Well, that's exactly how i feel. I just don't know what to do. Shane is back in my life, well i'm back in his. See? I don't even know! There is this whole other person in me that i'm just starting to figure out and i just don't know what to do. Shane and i sat up nearly all night talking about...well about everything. Who i was, who we were, what we did. Apparently i'm a pretty good Pirate. A Pirate! Ha! Me, can you imagine? With the picture Shane paints, it's not too terribly difficult to see. He called me C.J. That was my name to him. It feels so odd to have to get used to this...again. I just...I feel...that's the problem, i don't know. I want to love Shane but it's so hard because i don't yet know him all of the way, but for him, he's never lost any time. And Will...what of him? I feel absolutely horrible for treating him this way, in some respect anyway. Somehow we've managed to avoid each other for the past few days. How i'll never know, this ship is so damned small.
But there are bigger problems on the horizon. Shane went after Calico and James and now they both undoubtedly want us dead. I can't put the rest of the crew at risk. To think Kelly blamed me because he's the one who blew everyone's cover! Men, i swear. They just can't do what they are told and keep their damned mouths shut at the proper moments! I need to...i need to... i don't know! And i hate that! I've always been able to be in control. Not since i got on this damned ship have i been able to think straight once.

~Cassandra Jade~


Where you are seems to be
As far as an eternity
Outstretched arms open hearts
And if it never ends then when do we start?
I'll never leave you behind
Or treat you unkind
I know you understand
And with a tear in my eye
Give me the sweetest goodbye
That I ever did receive

Pushing forward and arching back
Bring me closer to heart attack
Say goodbye and just fly away
When you comeback
I have some things to say

How does it feel to know you never have to be alone
When you get home
There must be someplace here that only you and I could go
So I can show you how I
Dream away everyday
Try so hard to disregard
The rhythm of the rain that drops
And coincides with the beating of my heart

I'll never leave you behind
Or treat you unkind
I know you understand
And with a tear in my eye
Give me the sweetest goodbye
That I ever did receive

Pushing forward and arching back
Bring me closer to heart attack
Say goodbye and just fly away
When you comeback
I have some things to say

How does it feel to know you never have to be alone
When you get home
There must be someplace here that only you and I could go
So I can show you how I feel

Current Mood: Torn
Monday, November 24th, 2003
10:19 pm
[misskingsley]
An akward moment courtesy of Murron...
Will and I were having a bit of a conversation. I was a little curious to find out about this 'friend' that he was speaking to Gwen about who was interested in me. He seemed slightly uneasy about telling me about this close friend of his. So I'm in the midst of telling him about how I don't think I could ever bring myself to marry a solider type, Murron came in the room and you know what she asked? She asked if we were thinking of tying the knot, needless to say I was totally blind sided. But I just thought the idea was completely absurd...I mean...it is. Will...asking for my hand in marriage?! ::nervous laugh:: You know what...I feel really tired all of a sudden, I'm just going to rest for a little while...yeah.

Current Mood: shocked
Friday, November 21st, 2003
10:14 am
[pyratelass]
Marriage...::Evil laugh::
"Th' twa o' 'em, I swear...it'd only take one tiny push in th' righ' direction. I'm talkin' about Will an' Charlotte, o' course." :Clears throat, a small smile escapes: "I think I migh' a' jus' gi'en 'em ane. On me way ta th' mess hall, I o'er'eard 'em talkin' about marriage an' I jus' couldn' resist. I popped me 'ead in an' asked 'em if they was thinkin' about tyin' th' knot...they o' course ga' all embarrassed. Ye know they're thinkin' about it *now*, whether they wan' ta or nae." :Laughs: "They jus' need ta start talkin' to *each other*. Solve a lo' o' problems, tha' would." :Shakes head.: "Well, I think I've done a gude thing 'ere. 'opefully, those two woan be so stubborn as ta ruin wha' I've done fer 'em."


~Murron~

Current Mood: pleased
Monday, November 17th, 2003
10:15 pm
[misskingsley]
Ambushed!!!...again....
Will we *ever* stopped being attacked?! It seems like everyday a different ship attempts to sink us. *This* time it was crazy One-Eyed Pete and the Eye of Russia coming after us, well apparantly he was coming after me. I couldn't honestly tell you why, but he is James' brother so, I would assume it has something to do with him. But all the girls gotten taken over and he threw us all back, except for Murron thinking she was me. If that makes any sense. The man is insane, he doesn't know what he's doing. Thankfully when that loco bastardo threw me overboard I didn't drown, but the fall did make me start to bleed again and not to mention the water was freezing! Gwen and I got into a big fight, but she was right as always. That's when Murron and some guy came up on deck, apparently someone *else* Cassandra was involved with at one point or another. Am I surprised by this guy showing up and nearly crying when he saw Cass? Mmmmm, No, it was only a matter of time before someone else came professing their love for her. Will seemed surprised...maybe suprised isn't *quite* the right word..perhaps, extremely angry. But whatever, I am done with the entire Cassandra / Will thing. The whole thing just makes me tired thinking about it.

Current Mood: apathetic
Sunday, November 9th, 2003
11:55 pm
[cassandralayne]
Coming To Terms With The Past...One Step At A Time
If these past few days were like what hell is really like, then Lord i don't ever want to die. Alright then let me begin from the beginning.
The Pearl was attacked, we came under siege of The Phantom Conquerer. It was a surprise attack and they hit us pretty hard. However we held our own. During the slicing of flesh and the clashing of swords, Murron and i raced over to the other ship...Why? I have no idea, i can't even remember what we planned to do once we got there but we went anyway. I suppose it was simply that rush of adrenaline, the dangerous kind that runs through your veins at those moments when your mind can not think clearly. We reacted on a rash of emotions.
In any case, once we were over there, the Pearl had done a significant amount of damage to the Conquerer with our cannons and they wanted to pull out.
In all of the years that i have been living i don't believe my heart has ever stopped completely at one moment. But it came to a screeching halt when i came face to face with the first mate.
Shane.
Shane Kelly was the first mate on The Phantom Conquerer. Pieces have started to fall into place. Every day i am remembering more of those four years that i thought i had lost. I can't remember specific details but i do know that he was supposed to be dead. And i also remember that we were in love. A love that can't even begin to compare to that which i feel for William Turner at this point and time. Which brings me to the next event.
While Murron and I scrambled back to our ship, James, Captain of The Phantom, shot Charlotte who was in the Crows Nest. Why she was up there, i will never know. That is such and easy target for enemies it isn't even funny. As well, when you are up there, you have no place to go but down, you can very easily get trapped. Anyway, James shoots Charlotte and now all of the sudden William can not be sure if he still wants to give his heart to me. Well i can tell you how i feel about that. I think that is perfectly fine with me. Glad it's finally happened, only thing is, i am still here under Calico's orders therefor i must keep up this insane charade. It's only for a little while longer i suppose. But my thoughts keep drifting back to Shane. I know he saw me, and i know he remembered me because he stopped just as swiftly as i did. Which in turn caused their ship more damage. I need to see him again. I need to know what happened, i need to find out who i am...

~Cassandra Jade~


I don't know why I'm frightened
I know my way around here
The cardboard trees, the painted seas, the sound here...
Yes, a world to rediscover
But I 'm not in any hurry
And I need a moment


The whispered conversations in overcrowded halls
The atmosphere as thrilling here as always
Feel the early morning madness
Feel the magic in the making
Why, everything's as if we never said goodbye


I've spent so many mornings just trying to resist you
I'm trembling now, you can't know how I've missed you
Missed the fairy tale adventure
In this ever spinning playground
We were young together


And this time will be bigger
And brighter than we knew it
So watch me fly, we all know I can do it...
Could I stop my hand from shaking?
Has there ever been a moment
With so much to live for?

Current Mood: numb
Sunday, October 19th, 2003
11:57 pm
[misskingsley]
What is becoming of me?
Well today was surely an interesting day to say the least. Today was the day Will was going to come to the aide of his love, Cassandra and be the dashing gentleman he is and whisk her away from someone she never loved so they could be together forever...ugh gag me with a bloody spoon!! Dear William didn't plan the whole escape very well to tell you the truth. He just walked up there, put a knife to her throat, said a few sappy words and slowly backed away from the ceremony. He was relying on *me* of all people to watch his back and I did as such, what was I going to tell him, no? After all he is first mate on the ship I'm to be sailing on, so I kind of have to do what he says. So I watched his back, I had my rifle pointed at any of those confounded idiots that may hurt him. What a blasted fool I am, what I should have done was make someone else take this task...why should I of all the crew have to make sure nothing happens to him, so what if I have the best shot of everyone?! They could have gotten someone else to do it!! One of the guards went to pull a pistol he had in his coat, I saw it with my own eyes and my internal instinct kicked in and without thinking I shot him in the back of the head. After we all ran for our bloody lives I realized what it is I did. I put aside the fact that my uncle would *kill* me when we saw each other but I had just killed someone for William Turner, what the bloody hell is that?! This is surely madness taking me over, what am I becoming when I on instinct kill for someone else. I only kill people if absolutely nessesary, I mean this guard could have been pulling the pistol to scare Will in letting her go...but I didn't think about that possibility. I just shot him when I saw the handle of the pistol slowly emerge, I couldn't take the chance. Then I got to thinking would he have done the same for me, and the answer I came up with is probably not. This is the second time I've helped him out and...I just don't know what in the blazes I'm doing anymore I feel like I'm not in control of myself. But now it's horrible because Will spilled his soul to Cassandra and she seemed pissed, it looks like this whole thing was in vain. So now I have to spend God knows how long on this ship with her...I swear to God as my witness, I hope we don't cross paths, she being an excellent swordsman and I being an excellent marksman...a violent altercation may occur. But I hope not because I don't really want it to come to that right now, I'm just so tired of it all.

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To have and not to hold
So hot, yet so cold
My heart is in your hand
And yet you never stand
Close enough for me to have my way

To love but not to keep
To laugh, not to weep
Your eyes, they go right through
And yet you never do
Anything to make me want to stay

Chorus:

Like a moth to a flame
Only I am to blame
Ba ba da ba ba ba
What can I do?
Ba ba da ba ba ba
I go straight to you
Ba ba da ba ba ba
I've been told
You're to have, not to hold

To look but not to see
To kiss but never be
The object of your desire
I'm walking on a wire
And there's no one at all
To break my fall

(chorus)

You're to have, not to hold
You're to have, not to hold

(chorus)

You're to have, not to hold
You're to have, not to hold
You're to have, not to hold
To break my heart

Current Mood: tired
11:58 pm
[cassandralayne]
I've Survived You Once...I'll Do It Again
Damn it. Damn everything all to Hell. Do you know what transpired this night? William, him and his stubborn self! Today was the wedding, at least that's what was supposed to happen. Everything was going beautifully. My dress was wonderful, Nathen was shining and Elizabeth came. Apparently Will had arrived at the very last moment. He kidnapped me! Him and his plundering scalawag pirates, not to mention Charlotte.
I am now on the Pearl. Here to stay with these savages. I don't know if i'll survive. Her and i are not going to get along. We will eventually cross paths on the wrong day and one of us will end up laying on the flat of our back. No doubt we will both be miserable.
I don't understand why he couldn't just let me get married and let me be on my way, let me get on with my life. I thought that was what i was doing, but no, i somehow wound myself right back out here on this god for saken ocean.
I have another problem, not that this is anything new. It's one of something i've mentioned before. My memory. It's just gone. I don't even know half of my life. I just can't remember and it's driving me crazy. It's gotten worse lately. William wants me to be his, but i can't help feeling that i'm not. Again not to mention that i do not want to be his. I don't want to love him at all. I feel like i'm part of someone else already, i just can't shake these odd feelings that have come out of no where. I told him i'd have to think on things. That there is a lot more going on here that meets the eye in so many words. I just hope i can get everything figured out in time...

~Cassandra Jade~



I see the picture clear now, and the fog has lifted.
The wool you tried to pull over my eyes was clever.
Yeah your gifted.
But you forgot to dot some I's, and cross some T's along the way.
I'm better now despite you baby.
I'm stronger these days.

[Chorus]
Stronger.
I survived the crash.
Survived the burn.
Survived the worst, yeah baby, but I learned.
Survived the lies.
Survived the blues.
Almost killed me, but I survived the truth.
And when you wrote me off like I was doomed.
I survived you.

I can look in the mirror now.
It's been a slow awakening.
Haunted by a heart full of you, could'nt help mistaking.
That you could ever care for anyone.
Anyone but yourself.
But you would have to have a conscious baby.
Good luck I wish you well.

[Chorus]
I survived the crash.
Survived the burn.
Survived the worst, yeah baby, but I learned.
Survived the lies.
Survived the blues.
Almost killed me, but I survived the truth.
And when you wrote me off like I was doomed.
I survived you.

This heart has been torn in two.
Cut and bruised.
With too many bitter endings.
I'll be damned if I have thoughts of you rain on my new beginning.

[Chorus]
I survived the crash.
Survived the burn.
Survived the worst, yeah baby, but I learned.
Survived the lies.
Survived the blues.
Almost killed me, but I survived the truth.
And when you wrote me off like I was doomed.

I survived the crash.
Survived the burn.
Survived the worst, yeah baby, but I learned.
Survived the lies.
Survived the blues.
Almost killed me, but I survived the truth.
And when you wrote me off like I was doomed.
I survived you.
Saturday, September 6th, 2003
2:57 pm
[kittymersailles]
Another Night.
Another night spent in the sweet embrace of my latest lover -- Alcohol. I spoke with a grizzled pirate earlier in the evening. He told me that.. The newest Dons of Saint Lucia wouldn't let me get near my inheritance. I have chosen to simply ignore the warning. It cannot be as bad as he said. Also, I've decided on a ship to.. stow away on. Even the term sounds lowly. If found, I will promise to pay my fare, and more, if necessary, upon my arrival at Saint Lucia. From there, I should be able to find another ship from there.

Before my mind became foggy, again, I happened to listen in on a couple, making up. It was very.. touching. My current position -- sitting in the pub, holding my poor, aching head, is lightened by the memory of the two. Very, very sweet, really.

Note to self : Never trust anyone that preaches that you've had too much. Find someone who can cure an after-drinking headache.

Current Mood: drained
Friday, September 5th, 2003
8:28 pm
[cassandralayne]
I Can't Fight This Feeling Anymore
Well, tomorrow i am set to wed Nathan Lawson. And you know? I am coming to terms with this fact now. As much as that might not want to be believed by certain people, it's true. And what makes it all easier for me is that William could honestly care less. He is going to be off gallivanting with Charlotte and the rest of the crew tomorrow evening on The Black Pearl. I had invited him and Elizabeth to come, but it looks like the two people who i love the most in this world have declined. Elizabeth for obvious reasons. She is so disgusted with me, it hurts to breath when she glances my way. I am going to make things right between us. If it's the last thing i do so help me God. I just wish i could shake this feeling, this nagging feeling that something isn't right, or that something isn't going to be right tomorrow, i just want to get through the day with as little trouble as possible.
You should have seen Mother and Father beaming at me tonight at supper. Nathan and his family joined us. It seems that everyone is extremely happy. And i am too...for the most part... Oh who am i kidding? I don't love Nathan. I suppose i could grow to love him. It just makes it all the more difficult that the one person i truly love, doesn't return that love anymore. So i've given up. I can't fight the feeling that i love him, but i can suppress it, and damn it, if that's what it takes to get through tomorrow, and not to mention the rest of my life, then that's what will have to be done.

~Cassandra Jade~



I can't fight this feeling any longer
And yet I'm still afraid to let it flow
What started out as friendship, has grown stronger
I only wish I had the strength to let it show

I tell myself that I can't hold out forever
I said there is no reason for my fear
Cause I feel so secure when we're together
You give my life direction
You make everything so clear

And even as I wander
I'm keeping you in sight
You're a candle in the window
On a cold, dark winter's night
And I'm getting closer than I ever thought I might

And I can't fight this feeling anymore
I've forgotten what I started fighting for
It's time to bring this ship into the shore
And throw away the oars, forever

Cause I can't fight this feeling anymore
I've forgotten what I started fighting for
And if I have to crawl upon the floor
Come crashing through your door
Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore

My life has been such a whirlwind since I saw you
I've been running round in circles in my mind
And it always seems that I'm following you
Cause you take me to the places that alone I'd never find

And even as I wander I'm keeping you in sight
You're a candle in the window on a cold, dark winter's night
And I'm getting closer than I ever thought I might

And I can't fight this feeling anymore
I've forgotten what I started fighting for
It's time to bring this ship into the shore
And throw away the oars, forever

Cause
I've forgotten what I started fighting for
And if I have to crawl upon the floor
Come crushing through your door
Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore.
Wednesday, September 3rd, 2003
2:42 am
[kittymersailles]
A Way Out
After so many weeks of searching, I believe that I've finally found a way home. I just need to convince them to take me along.

I have several schemes in the works, and if this doesn't work.. I believe I may be forced to resign myself to a lowly stow-away. Just for the trip, of course.

It'll be terrible for my hair. I just can't find it in myself to really care, though. I find sea voyages.. enthralling, captivating. There's even something in the word that screams romance, love, adventure.. "Sea." It's like meeting a man called "Earnest." There's just something so noble, so right and true. I believe I will.. No, no.

The first thing must come first, they say. And that is to get home, to straighten the family estate. And then, perhaps, I can recover, gather myself, and set out again.

Perhaps I'll invest in a ship.

Current Mood: chipper
4:08 pm
[reluctantpirate]
The Last Goodbye
I am slowly starting to come to the realization that in one evening and a day my life gradually started to crumble in front of me. For some reason every single time Cassandra Layne makes an appearance in my life she is able to shake my foundation so hard that I can't seem to repair it again. I realized that I think I may be falling in love with her all over again. It's just my luck because she's getting married to Nathen, who as well know is at the top of the wealth and privledge food chain. She told me that she is in love with me and she told me that I can't stop running and she is right because I don't want to fucking run anymore. I just wish I could find her right now and sweep her into my arms and kiss her with everything that is inside of me. Hector and I also had a falling out over another woman, go figure.. this type of shit always tears people apart. In his demented mind he honestly believes that I am meant to be with this girl that I just met last night. Apparently we had some sort of glorious child hood past together. She took me by surprise and yes she is truly amazing but the fact of the matter is, although I am becoming more and more impulsive I am still not impulsive enough to go for someone based on a first impression. Cassandra came back.. and I was still here.. did Hector ever realized that maybe we were meant to be together because we found each other once again? Right now I would rather not speak to him and I am sure that he wishes to share no words with me because he told me that I was a disgrace to the Turner name. One thing is very clear though.. I must leave this place as soon as possible before it eats me up alive and spits out my bones. And if I don't leave with Cassy.. then it will be our last goodbye.

This is our last goodbye
I hate to feel the love between us die
But it's over
Just hear this and then i'll go
You gave me more to live for
More than you'll ever know

This is our last embrace
Must I dream and always see your face
Why can't we overcome this wall
Well, maybe it's just because i didn't know you at all

Kiss me, please kiss me
But kiss me out of desire, babe, and not consolation
You know it makes me so angry 'cause i know that in time
I'll only make you cry, this is our last goodbye

Did you say 'no, this can't happen to me,'
And did you rush to the phone to call
Was there a voice unkind in the back of your mind
Saying maybe you didn't know him at all
You didn't know him at all, oh, you didn't know

Well, the bells out in the church tower chime
Burning clues into this heart of mine
Thinking so hard on her soft eyes and the memories
Offer signs that it's over... it's over

Current Mood: distressed
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