I don't even know where to start or what to say. Today was the day that I finally worked up enough courage to tell Will...about everything. It almost amazed me that I told him all of that because not even my uncle knows about what actually happened. I was a little apprehensive about talking to him about it, and when I first started to speak i just wanted to crawl under a rock and die. But as I let it all out I felt more at ease and now it's as if a weight has been lifted from me. I am still unsure if I did the right thing though, I don't even know what to think about it anymore. I'm just tired of hiding what happened and it makes me feel so unhappy all of the time. I'm praying that my mother was right when she told me to tell him and that he would understand, but he seemed to. I couldn't tell you what I'm so afraid of, I guess I'm just afraid that people will think I'm a whore. I'm just rambling now, I'm going to go and occupy myself instead of moping around.
Korn - Dirty
Keep knocking. No one's there. Pouring down. Near be felt. I'm out here, by myself. All alone. Ripping my head off. I hurt so bad inside. I wish you could see the world through my eyes. It stays the same. I just wanna laugh again.
Keep hoping. Nothing to spare. So my life. Isn't quite there. Feel like a whore. A dirty whore. Such a whore. Dirty...